I can't wait till January comes.

I think about you night and day even when I'm snapping pictures.

I can't get you out of my mind

Baby,by the time you read this,I'm already fast asleep. Now your in Qatar,its gonna be even tougher for us to cammie,harder for us to chat and we can't even text. I'm not liking it a bit. I miss you so much,I wish i could be there with you. I really want to be there. My heart aches thinking about it. I know I'll be in your arms soon enough,and it will always be a day closer. I prefer when your still in Melbourne. I got the time difference mixed up. Your now 5 hours backwards. It will definitely be a challenge for both of us. I suppose couple would have to face hard times to earn a good relationship. I hope so dear. I hope so.

Tell me you miss me. Tell me you love me. Tell me you want me too. I'm not used with all of this yet. Sooner or later I will. I want February to come. I want it to happen just by a blink of an eye. I want you here by my side. I want to be able to love you more. I don't want to cry missing you. I want you to be the one to wipe the tears away if i ever cry. I want you to be there to hug me,hold me and tease me. I want you.

Bee,I won't be able to go online in the day time already after Wednesday. Some malay lady is gonna be taking my table and everything in the office. I'm just gonna be left with a table and my cell phone. I don't want,but i can't do anything about it.

Results are out on Wednesday too. I'm worried. I don't want to fail. It will reduce all my chances for everything. I don't want to be force to stay at home when your back. I'm feeling so depressed. Its tougher now that i have to go through it by my own,and I don't know how to tell you since I can't always be online. But I will find a way though. I always do.

Baby,me missing you loads. And I'm thinking about you all the time.

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Loving you as long time let us to

I love you too!!

Wish you were here cause i'm thinking of you now.

This blog feels/seems dead. But just so you know,we are still alive,breathing,kicking ass and most of all loving each other deeply.

My life throughout the week has been a little more interesting compared with what I usually would do on a typical weekend. Walking around the entire mall for three whole hours in heels is crazy. Went home with two huge blister together with my gorgeous heels. And I got the pants I wanted but got it in a different colour. So I was in Parkson three times in two days,ate ice cream two times in two days,met the same friend three times in three days and things just got better. Been having a lot of mood swing lately. Small things will just pull me down to the ground and I hate being like this. And Chrismas is near. My first Chrismas with the one I heart. But... *sigh* lets' not think nor talk about it. Just be back soon,okay darling? There's so many occasion to celebrate,but we can wait. I miss you.

That's what I did over the weekend.

Lets see how much of a good girlfriend I am. So I know he's been watching loads of movies. He would go catch a movie right after dinner. Sometimes he would hang out at Nick's or Yogi's place till probably at about 3 in the morning? Don't think baby has been doing much shopping also cause he's been sleeping/napping too much and I got used to it. Both of us can just fall asleep half way texting. I'm even special though,I fall asleep even when I'm half way typing. Things would be alot fun and happier if I was there or he being here. And baby had pan cakes,I don't remember how many times but I want some too! Baby's been reading alot of online comics also,and watching pokemon movie? Doreamon is cuter btw. Stick to doreamon!! xD

I think that's about it. If i do remember more,I'll just add in again in the next post.

This post is taking me days. And no,I'm not getting any older. Baby said so.

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♥ Stronger than ever ♥

Two month,baby. Two months. I love you and the love from me to you is growing each day,each hour,each minute and each second. I'm the happiest and luckiest any girl can be. We been strong and tough and it has brought us till this day. Under all those nags,i know you care. And I'll be there for you as i know you would for me. Without you,i wouldn't be looking forward for anything. Without you,i wouldn't be the girl I am today. I love you. Hugs and kisses.

Please don't say you are bored of me

The title says it all. I'll be the one blogging till baby finishes his papers. Make sure you blog,i tell you!! Or else...... *threatens*

I don't know what to blog about besides mentioning how much i miss and love the boyfriend. I'm not a good blogger and at times,my post can be really boring and unrelated. And there isn't any pictures for me to upload. The number of days are getting shorter day by day. And I'm getting closer to the boyfriend each minute. But sometimes when i think about the distance,i start to feel sad inside. Then when i get a text or a call from you,i feel loved once again. Please come back home soon. Pinky promise?

Will be seeing the boyfriend tonight,excited!! So many to tell,so many things to say. Me doing the talking,he doing the listening. Baby is left with two more papers. And he will be so free when he gets his bum bum over to Qatar. At that time,the only way to get baby is through msn and skype. And Qatar is two hours behind. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. Either ways,i don't like the time difference. Its not that bad now though since the hour is just three hours difference. Pfff. So i got to count forward all the time. And every time cammie-ing,he ends up sleeping at 6 something in the morning. =(

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Finals drives us all up the wall

I miss my baby pumpkin. Missing him very much. It was gonna be the last time to see baby last night till finals are over,which is gonna be this week. Pffft. But thanks to Miri Internet line,it didn't happen. I only had a few minutes with baby,and that was it!! I'm telling you,that's my shortest date ever. Boo-hoo. I'm just gonna be thinking/missing/dreaming about baby all week long.

His finals are in next week. And i wish him all the best. Don't stress yourself out which i know you already have. I know you will do your best. And i know how bad you want this too. Me rooting you all the way. Bring mini Melanie along,she's gonna your lucky star.

:loving you baby:

The words are coming out wrongly. I'm getting my eyes all wet. I'm always one of the person who never fail to be strong in heart. Having such strict parents,makes me who i am today. It may sound silly and weird,but I'm kinda grateful for that. I been through ups and downs,and i went through it all whether i was alone or not. I may cry the whole night even till i fall asleep but I'm always better the next day. Its like it never happen at all. I don't know if that's how i should define 'strong'. There are many times i told the boyfriend,"i will be strong",i mean it. I will be strong like no other. I will wait till I'm finally in your arms. I will wait till you say its enough. I will wait till time decided to end us both.

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Hearing something i didn't want, hurts so much but i know i would have to bear with it somehow. There's always a way to everything. I know it hurts you as much too. Like a knife stabbing through the heart of two person.

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I will breathe through the night, i will smile when the sun shine through my room. And you will definitely be the first person i think of once i open my eyes. I will do what i usually do, and that is to forget what happened and just go on with what we still have. Nothing is over till we call it the end. We will and shall never say 'sorry'. I will always love you and i will love you like no other. I will be your biggest fan. I will be the one who adore you, admire you, care about you, and most of all love you.

Falling in love over again

There was once back then when i didn't believe things happen for a reason,but i do now.

There was once when all my confident crashed down silently but you pulled them up.

There was once i didn't believe nor have faith in anyone but you prove me wrong by showing it.

There was once i was lost and couldn't get myself right,but you taught me what's wrong and what's right.

There was many time i fail in life but now i got you to tell me that, its okay to fail because you learned from it.

There was times when i just think of only myself but i don't want that anymore.

I will think about you, I will think about me, and I will think about us.

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Take good care of yourself,baby. I wish i could do better than just calling,praying and making sure your getting better. I know i can't do much and that sucks. But I'm always there in spirit and in heart,like what you told me. Will it help? I don't know. I just can't imagine you getting sick alone there. =( I feel helpless. So please do fight it. Eat well,rest more and drink loads of water.

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Please take care. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Hugs and kisses.

Returning to the blogging world as two become one.

Its been so long since I've written a post like this. And this time its not of my thoughts but of ours, from an unexpected prank our relationship turned into something special. I would have never thought of getting together with anyone this year, but she was the totally the exception. She understands me, she makes me feel comfortable when I am with her, she cares for me, she makes me laugh, and she never never never miss the chance to say 'I love you'.

Though this post may not be long and special, but I hope it just get my message through to her, telling her that I love her. I want to be there for her through thick and thin, through hard times and joyous times. I want her to feel the same way of how I view her and appreciate her. I know sometimes I maybe stubborn and mean, but at the end of the day, I just want to love you all the way. Its not impossible for us to be together, its not impossible for us to love each other even if its long distance, and its never too late to say that I love you.

Though sometimes it maybe hard for us, the time difference, the age difference, the family background and all. But it will never stop me from trying to be there for you, and I know that you will be there for me too. This feeling which I thought that was long gone was found, where? In you my love, I found it in you. Time will pass in a blink of an eye my dear and we will soon see each other, to feel each others care, warmth and love. I will wait for you and I wont ever let you shed a tear for me.

I dedicate this post and every post from now on to you my love.



The guy.

Gf's spamming again

I dreamt about baby last night. And i woke up smiling. *grins* And just by dreaming about baby,i regained nearly all the brain cells i killed last night. I know i dreamt baby was back and the rest i can't recall. Teehee. The more i dream about baby,the more wiser i become. *giggles* I wish i was even smarter and RICHER so i can be in Perth. At least its still nearer than where i am right now. But still,we would have to fly. And i would. He would. I will. He will. I can. He can. I shall. He shall. Imaginations running all over the place. *whispers into baby's ears*

Gonna be sitting in a cold room filled with scared faces in less than 3 hours time. I will survive! Just got to find that confident. Where have you placed it?

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#2

The temptation of leaving something here is so strong and i can't say no.

I lurb you from the bottom of my heart. Off to bed now. Candy dreams. And i miss you.

#1

Baby!! First post from me. =)

Starting this blog together make me all so excited. Like always,I MISS YOU LOADS. I'm still counting the days every morning once i get up from bed. The number is getting smaller and I'm happy. I know you are too. I can't wait to feel even protected in your warm arms, I can't wait to get the love i yearn for and also the care i been looking all these while. I love you,baby. And my little world certainly seem to be getting bigger ever since you started stepping your foot into it. I hope I'm doing my part well that is, making you happy every single day without failing, though i know there are times i make things really hard for us both.

I'll be strong for you, I wont let you drop a tears. I will hold your hands as long as time let us to. I want this. I can't deny that I'm falling even deeper than the previous day. Its all adding up because you make it so special. You make me feel so special though your miles away from me. But we'll prove to everyone that distance won't tear us apart. That's what makes this relationship so special to be in. I love you so much and there's no other words that can express it even better.